The AWESOME benefits of seeking the HELP of TRUE PROFESSIONALS

„One Day … i was #LayinginMyBedStaringAtTheFuckingCeiling although it was pretty dark already, in my #PatientRoom in #Psychiatry (where i #CheckedINvoluntarily (at least #THIS time) cause of a #lifeThreateningDepression, my #Roommate #Francesco ( sic! LOL ), wo was besides me the #ONLY #ManicDepressive on the whole Station (and #forSOMEreason the #DOCTORS decided to put us in a room together) was in the #SAMEemotionalANDintellektualCondition (although he was more of a #BIPO2 while i was a #BIPO1) couldn’t #sleep either. so #we or better said #HE started a conversation beginning with a #BIGsigh from his Side . „Oh my dear, Frank … .. don’t you #ThinkTHISWouldntBeCool …#ustIMAGINE …if one would #JustFallAsleepDespiteAllThoseFuckingThingsWeSufferFrom, feeling #AbsoluteDesperation, #CompleteHelpessness and that GODDAM #AbsolutelyUNNECESSARYfeelingOFGuilt because your #BelovedOnesMightSuffer because you #DAREDtoBecomeILL or simply cause some #NotGENDERspecificASSHOLE taught you it is #EVILtoMASTURBATEtoPORN,(and you still #somehow #FearThisMightBeTrue, yes YOU #FearIt … cause YOU dont want to #GoToHell … #CauseTHATindoctrinationSTILLworksInsideOfyou although you got RID of that #ABSURDfear #intellectually a looooong time ago it still works on on your Psyche #EMOTIONALLY? …BUT THEN … you wake up in the morning #REFRESHED and #COOL, even #SLIGHTLYhappy #Motivated #toMOveYOURassANDgetTHINGSdone … SOMEHOW … [and HERE comes #thePOINT] ..like in a #ParallelUniverse in which not only a significant part of #YOURpain is gone, but #especially from your beloved ones also, your friends, your partners, even – l#ookingATitGLOBALLY #ReducedTOaNecessaryMINIMUM.“ I #SmiledIntheDARK „What a nice thought“, i thought and i can ASSURE you #IthoughtQUITEsomeSHIT“ in my life, even in times of my #DEEPESTDesperation —NO– #ESPECIALLY then … but THIS #IDEA was kinda new to me. #WOW… that is absolutely fantastic, of breathtaking beauty, #THIS Idea alone.“ To me this idea as a DREAM alone gave me HOPE enough to NOTkill myself – and I had a #ContinuusPeriod in my Life of 6 FUCKING months in which i #THOUGHTnothing but how i would do THAT the Best – NOW here comes the Information which #MIGHT be of #interest to #someOFyou, some of you #alreadyKNOWbyNOW, although this #Information might be #COmpletelyUseless to #OTHERs : There has been made a #PHENOMENALscientificDISCOVERY (YgoodINTIMATEriendgaveTOme) a while ago #Einstein appearently #PREDICTED amazingly precise close to a certain #PointInTime, and although #Scientists at his time found it mostly unlikely, that THIS COULD HAPPEN, they were #INTELLECTUALLYhonest enough to admit that they found #NOlogicalERRORS in his #CALCULATIONS. I took a look at it and although i am no scientist it gave me the impression, from what i could understand about it at all, that OUR personal #Dream (Francescos and mine)or „just“ MINE is MUCH more than „just“ POSSIBLE … it is rather likely THAT this Dream becomes REALITY …. soon … if it not even has happened already, i haven’t checked the #scientificNEWS yet. One last Information: if you are in the UNFORTUNATESituation to have never taken some RISK to make MISTAKES, mistakes that couid cause serious physical and emotional PAIN sometimes (cause for THIS you might need BALLS/OVARIES of STEEL, if you don’t KNOW any shit, arent INTERESTED it shit, NEVER EVER even REALLY SUFFERED shit because the ONE and ONLY person YOU really CARED about in your ENTIRE fucking LIFE is basically your own fucking SELF (which is pretty insignificant on a global scale, just like EVERYONE else to – isnt it a pity, since you ALWAYS BELIEVED to be SO FUCKING SPECIAL so VERY HARD, that it’s KINDA unfair that it’s UNTRUE in the END, right? BOOH and i WORKED SOOO FUCKING HARD ON believiNG TO be so FUCKING SPeCIAL, SWEATED TEARs AND EVEN BLOOD FOR it … boooooooooooooHUHUH) … you might have a VERY HARD TIME … to COPE with shit. HAve a beautiful day.

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